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IN THE SPIRIT OF THE SEASON… Happy Valentine’s Day!
According to the Hindu, today is MahaShivaratri: The Divine Wedding of Shiva and Shakti.
It is still the season of Lovers… Psyche & Eros & Mars & Venus are all in Pisces, and Mars & Venus are getting closer by the day, for their Cosmic Kiss…

So, in honour of Divine Union, here is my brand new book: The Sacred Sex Manual
A beginner’s guide to Authentic Tantric Sex Magic.
Power to the People.


It was going to be an article for a popular .com but it was way too long for an article, and we couldn’t get on the same page about it… so I made it into a short ebook, instead.

“Know thyself, and ye shall know the Universe” ~ Pythagorus

You can sample a portion of it on the site for free.
Be sure to share this with your Lovers, and potential Lovers… 😉



This post is inspired by a chat I was having about something JEFF BROWN wrote:

Are You in a Conscious Relationship?

One of the beautiful things about the conscious relationship movement is that couples stay together and work things through when the shadow arises between them.

Where before many people gave up on relationships that became difficult, we now understand that we all have unresolved issues and patterns that are brought to light in powerful love connections.

Like a flashlight to the dark crevices of our consciousness, that which is not yet healed reveals itself to be resolved.

To walk away from those connections is to delay our own expansion.
At the same time, some of us make the mistake of thinking that we must attempt to work through every relationship that excavates the shadow.

This is particularly true for those with co-dependent tendencies because they are constantly looking for reasons to remain fused, even if they are beyond the point of resolving their differences.
Conscious relationship does not mean that every relationship is worthy of our conscious attention.

Some are exactly what the soul doctor ordered, and others are deeply unhealthy.

The art form of relatedness is distinguishing between the two. ॐ
~Jeff Brown

Particularly, I had this to say:

“Where before many people gave up on relationships that became difficult, we now understand that we all have unresolved issues and patterns that are brought to light in powerful love connections.

To walk away from those connections is to delay our own expansion.

At the same time, some of us make the mistake of thinking that we must attempt to work through every relationship that excavates the shadow.”

Such a voice of Clarity on the Power of Love. (Jeff is GREAT – a Cure for the psychic pollution of “the New Age”)

Escapism; Denial; Co-dependence; Shrinking; Fear…

Le Couer… COURAGE. Is not the absence of fear.

Love knows what it’s doing, and I wish people would remember to Surrender to that.

The more time you spend with the wrong people, the longer the world is out of alignment.
You hurt others, you hurt yourself. You enable bad behaviour.

Toxic partners are poison. You have a duty to the future to make them aware of their True Reflection; to leave them better than you found them – but to LEAVE them.
Nothing grows in toxic foundations; everything dies. Including you.

“The Secret Ingredient here, is: Boundaries.


Boundaries are an Art of Measure.”

The Secret Ingredient here, is: Boundaries.
Boundaries are an Art of Measure.
Some people’s Boundaries are too tight, and others’ are too loose.
And I am writing this, to elaborate on all of that.

Too loose, and you’re hurting yourself.
Too tight, and you’re hurting others.

Fast-Forward to your Graduation!
You may now stop re-living the same nightmare over and over with other partners, in order to “learn that lesson”.

It exposes our Shadows, to others, to ourselves. True Love is Illuminating, and Penetrating.
It brings you Clarity.
It is your Mirror.
“To walk away from those connections is to delay our own expansion.

Point being: not ‘just’ your expansion…

We EXPAND into The High Road.
We CONTRACT into The Low Road.

The High Road, is the path that is Aligned with The Grand Design.
I don’t have time to debate whether there is or isn’t a Grand Design – there is. You will download that realisation once you become realised. Look at the little pentagon when you pluck a grape from the vine.

The High Road is MACRO-Vision. The Medicine of The Eagle. The Eternal Soul. Cause and Effect. The Great Cycles.
“As Above, So Below”
The Low Road is MICRO-Vision. Simply; your little world, with your job, and your friends, and your house, and your family. You, You, You, Mine, Mine, Mine: The Ego. Your name and temporary person, who is destined to die.


“I Love a Man that turns around.”

MACRO-Vision can see the whole picture; the above, and the below.
MICRO-Vision sees only ‘the below’; the potential for separate things. It has NO COMPREHENSION of the Cohesive Macro-Vision.

To travel The Low Road, is to live, and die, and make very little impression upon any other living thing. Not even your offspring; life’s default back-up programme is it’s Lust for itself. (It would just be nicer if it were ‘conscious’.)
Unfortunately, this ‘default’ pattern has been repeating over the aeons (Samsara), and severe damage is being done to our Host-Planet. Unconscious Impressions. Either the entities who run, design, and perpetuate this civilisation are micro-focused, OR they are evil aliens with a precise agenda. Whatever it is, it is NOT good. But only Macro-Vision can see that.
So, just like those who’ve gone before, you’re welcome to The Low Road if that is your wish.
It’s a little bit like a movie… it’s fun, it ends. You die.

To travel The High Road, is to EXPAND into the Unknown. Nothing is certain, except that your Life will ripple out and touch the Lives of others.


“Moira” is The High Road

The High Road is Aligned with the Grand Design. It is not the way of Ego and Control. It is the Path of Surrender.
– and That is The Great Big Fear.
Of the Ego, to your Soul.
All you do, is switch pilots…

Face to face with another – consciously – is the greatest Potential Expansion there is.
Facing your TRUE SELF in the Mirror. *note: NOT projections. That is UNconscious, and annoying.

Anyone who doesn’t want you because you’re “too damaged” (from before learning about your Lovingly loose boundaries) can go fuck themselves.
They are AFRAID OF THEMSELVES. Not sweet beautiful you. ❤
They don’t want to grow up.
They want Sunshine all the time, happiness, and laughter, “easyness” – not the Raw Unedited Truth of Existence.
They don’t want to look in the mirror – they want to project UNreality on to you. Don’t allow it.
Or worse: they’re just an asshole. Here’s hoping they never have a Pluto Transit.

* please note: if you *think* you’re in Love with someone, and they’re not returning it, one of two things is happening:
1) Your Ego is driving; your radar is off: you are lost, and actually just obsessed, hungry, or desperate – and it isn’t Love. It’s just attraction, trying to show you your way back to yourself. You’re not seeing ‘clearly’.
2) Their Boundaries are too tight, they are rejecting LOVE TRUTH CLARITY – not you – and you will have to “Return To Sender” to get on with the re-calibration of the Universe.

It is constantly recalibrating; you can trust it. That's why everything is in perfect order; or will be, again. Hang on to your True Self; your *~ glittering ~* way; the golden thread; your Bliss. OM *~ <3 ~*

It is constantly recalibrating; you can trust it.
That’s why everything is in perfect order; or will be, again.
Hang on to your True Self; your *~ glittering ~* way; the golden thread; your Bliss.

It is in Surrender, that we are filled with the flow of “The Absolute Power”.
Let’s call it “Love”.

Love is a River, and it has it’s destination.

That’s why it is possible to be a vessel of Love.
Ultimately, “Love will save you.”
That’s why “The Lover is The Saviour.”
*please remember that True Spiritual Ecstasy was hijacked by the church. Love is God. Lovers are Saints.

(I Love Fan Videos. 🙂 People put their Heart in them) …*Note: “Prayer to St. Francis” by Sarah McLachlan is not available in Australia. 😦


To quote myself:

“Love knows what it’s doing, and I wish people would remember to Surrender to that.

The more time you spend with the wrong people, the longer the world is out of alignment.
You hurt others, you hurt yourself. You enable bad behaviour.”

These are the Tai Chi ~ the on/off ~ the towards and away ~ Giving and Receiving ~ The Art of Relating.

Too much GIVING, not enough SELF-Giving, and RECEIVING what YOU want.
Where is the Self-Love?
Would you let someone treat you this way?
You deserve to be Loved the way you Love.
The Lesson is always Boundaries.
Loose is the Way of the Lover.
The Way of Trust. Openness…
The Unconditional acceptance.
The Ever-Giving Heart.
You are enabling bad behaviour every minute you allow yourself to be disrespected. You aren’t helping them; you are teaching them that it’s ok to treat people this way. And they will continue to do it to others – don’t you want to protect the world from being treated like that?
Don’t you want to stop it in its tracks?
You are stunting your growth on a child in an adult-body. You are lowering yourself to help them up. They don’t want to come up, and will cut you down every time you try.
You deserve an equal.
“But if no-one helps them, who will?”
You have obviously never heard the tale of the drowning person who WILL drown you, too.
Say it with me: “I Am a Lighthouse. Not Search & Rescue. I Am a Lighthouse. Not Search & Rescue. I AM A LIGHTHOUSE. NOT SEARCH & RESCUE.
If they wont meet you in The Sacred Middle, where are you?
You’re in THEIR world.
We need you here, in Alignment.
The more time you spend with the wrong people, the longer the world is out of alignment.”

How? – do you even care? lol
Maybe you do, maybe you don’t; there are two of you, or you’re often ‘split’.
Maybe you give what you want to give – but not necessarily what others want, or need.
Maybe you don’t receive what others want to give you.
If you Love to give – and be received – then receiving is a gift, too. You should try it sometime…
That includes really listening; not just hearing what you want to hear.
Did you ever think that people might actually need you?
That you really are that valuable.
That you matter more to The Universe than you think you do?
You are shutting the world OUT.
Depriving it of Alignment. Whether you can see it or not, you are. Starving it of your Unique Essence.
You are single-handedly preventing Expansion of The Universe. You are that important.
With Boundaries too tight, you are the Living Embodiment of The Low Road. Deaf, even.
Not everything is about what you want; you have so much to offer others about Boundaries… about things we don’t even know.
You are Tantra waiting to happen.
The Flow needs you to open up and let it in.
We need you, here.
If you chose CONTRACTION – or ended up that way – you’re just afraid. Wounded. We all are. And the more out of alignment we are with The Grand Design, the longer we remain wounded…
Breathe in Contraction, Breathe Out Expansion.
Breathe in Contraction, Breathe Out Expansion.
Breathe in Contraction, Breathe Out Expansion.
Do that all night.
Open up.
Find someone you can trust, and just start a conversation… start to learn who is expansive, and who contracts.
Protect Expansion, and Heal Contraction. Treat them how you may have wanted someone to treat you in your contracted state.
Go into their world, and pull them out.
Leave at the first sign of drowning, but don’t give-up on those who are learning to swim.

* please note: there is nothing wrong with privacy and alone-time. That is the Art of “Healthy Boundaries”.
While The Low Road may hide in constant comfort and paralysing safety, it’s not like “you can never rest on The High Road!”
That’s what The Art of Sanctuary is about; take a moment, go backstage, replenish, refresh, restore, re-script, recalibrate, re-womb. Rest. Dream… and be reborn.

You know you don’t belong together, yet, nothing better is going on And you’re so comfortable.
You are both enabling the misalignment of The Universe.
You are robbing other people of their “perfect match” by occupying space you know you don’t belong in.
The more time you spend with the wrong people, the longer the world is out of alignment.

If your radar is ‘off’, it will be your Ego in the Driver’s Seat. “Lusting”. Cheap Thrills, Ego Boosts, and Power Games.
Ego relationships rule the Microcosm. They shut-out the FLOW for fear of disruption, of loss, and change.You can be in charge of your micro-cosm, to a certain ‘comfortable’ degree of compromise.

When you Love someone, do you fear their shadows? NO.
Then why would someone not be capable of Loving yours?

“Healthy Boundaries”

Or as my X-Beast used to howl: “What’s the point in doing all this if no one else is doing it!”. He just wanted to drink Pepsi and race cars. “I don’t wanna know! I just wanna make mistakes and figure it out myself!!”
“I’ll see you at the Finish-Line.” I told him. I don’t think he got it; like, I’m already there. Waiting.


DISCLAIMER: there are many articles on “conscious sexuality” out there, raising passionate debate and heated outrage in the name of ‘sexism’. It is my finding, that people who ark up about the “equality of the sexes”, have yin and yang planets in harmonious or unified aspects. In their world, the sexes are equal. There is also a breed of genderless people; Androgynous, Angelic, Alien – they also have these yin and yang planetary placements. So, to you, I say: you are not my “target” audience. You may read my articles with yin and yang eyes, and find yourself amidst its wisdom, and add your own in any of the comments. This is Tantra: getting to know people who are not you.


These Symbols, written in the UNIVERSAL LANGUAGE, transcend the limits of our Language… Hint: they are NOT 2D. The River… between them… is The Sacred Middle. Tantra.


In other people’s worlds, the sexes aren’t always ‘equal’, they are complementary; two halves, in teamwork. (-and “she” can “wear the pants”. Too. Some heterosexual-couples might even identify as lesbians, unbeknownst to you – especially with Venus, Moon, or Psyche contacts.) There are EXTREME masculine and/or feminine people in the world, who want to understand each other, and be in relationship with one another, who have been split in half by aliens/religion/tradition/society/nature/ – whatever – and do not have harmonious yin and yang planets/psychology. In these articles, mostly, I see over 90% of Women trying to educate men on how to be in relationship/s with them; failed Love has turned her Humanitarian. Her Lover is so far away (in distance and consciousness), that everyone is caught in her beam. I see public lectures to useless old boyfriends who refused to *~ EXPAND ~* “Female Teachers” are, in fact, a Yin/Yang. Teaching, and Illumination, are Active, Yang Energies. Giving.


Not 2D

As are Male Students: “receptive”… Yin Men. Because – classically – Men are Mars, and Women are Venus, and Mars is War/Sex/Self and Venus is Love/Relationship/Harmony. He wants to find his own way without any help from anyone – solo-mission into the unknown, discover shit, make mistakes, and figure it out himself; and She wants to Love, and Team Up, and become a Power-Couple who get WAY more done – together – than his “Pioneer Mission” can ever even hope to achieve on his own. Because he can see what he wants, and go straight toward it – but she can see everything, everywhere… Everything he can’t. Of course we all have male and female and Love and War and are all made of sperm and egg: Mother-Magic-Father. Cosmic Mother and Father energies are Yin and Yang – we all have them to varying degrees of balance and imbalance. These “conscious sexuality” articles are written by people (mostly women) attempting to educate the world on the art of relating. If you find you are irritated by the tone of these articles: WRITE YOUR OWN! Be a voice for your own minority, and post your article on the comments of other articles you find, so others can find them. If you are a reformed useless X-boyfriend, share your awakening. If you’re Androgynous, teach us how to Love YOU. If there’s a hole in the world, what are you going to do about it?


YIN AND YANG/SRI YANTRA/TAI CHI/HUNAB KU http://www.beginnerstaichi.com/tai-chi-symbol.html

Because if they’re not in communication, they’re in chaos. And this is Tantra: The Balance of The Cosmic Forces.

And the only reason that no one “wants” to be a “feminine” is because reception does not get the reception it deserves. It is a CONSCIOUS GIFT to be received. An ALLOWING. It takes great courage, to CONTINUALLY and CONSCIOUSLY open up, and flower, and bloom. Radios are receivers. To be receptive, is to receive your environment, the entire Cosmos. Wombs Lovingly and Willingly receive New Life. USB sticks receive data. So even though the days of Doris Day and John Wayne are over, Doris and Wayne still exist. And maybe they are attracted to each other. And maybe WE can help them understand each other. Because, according to these 90% of articles, Doris has found her inner cowboy, but Wayne still refuses to sing. LIVING EXAMPLE: my Venus in Virgo in the 11th House, means my Love is a Priestess, a Healer, a Teacher – and part Alien. Like, from the Future, or Outer-Space. Eccentric, electric, inventive. My Love is Humanitarian. (but enough about how great I am – lol) My Mars in Cancer in the 8th House, on the other hand, is a Feminist, Alchemist, Intimist, and Sexual-Energy Transformer. I protect Feminine Energy, and I fight for Mothers, and women, and sex, and Tribe – and Sanctuary. For Grandmas, Grandpas, and The Cycles and Secrets of the Womb, and of Life and Death. So you see, I am mostly of a “feminine” persuasion. A Feminine Warrior/Alien Priestess. My inner John Wayne is a Cosmic Cowboy and Goddess Worshipper. My Love and War are also in a sextile aspect, meaning they are a team, and a force to be reckoned with: Priestess and her Conscious Cowboy. * IN THE FUTURE I will also do short “John & Doris” astrology readings if that’s a reflection you’d like to have for yourself; and I’ll check the health of your Team Venus/Mars. I’m so busy right now, and will edit this part when I’m ready. Yee-hah!


I don’t want to have sex with you.
Your erection, is not my responsibility.


If this is news to you, here are a couple of suggestions:
1) Learn how to develop human connections through the art of conversation. Ask interesting questions. Have interests.

2) Learn how to channel your sexual energy into other things, by using it as fuel for your Life; connect it to your Heart, circulate it through your body, connect it to your mind, fuel your art, creativity, and community projects.

3) If it’s uncomfortably overwhelming, go and masturbate in the bathroom and come back out for at least 5 minutes more erection-free conversation.

4) Maybe your Navigation is all off, and your erection leads you astray. Get aligned with your Body, Mind, and Spirit.

5) Go and find someone who shares your mutual desire for casual, meaningless sex.

So this is dedicated to all the boys with only one thing on their mind: sex.

I don’t want to have sex with you.
And I don’t owe you an explanation.

Personally, if I want you, I’ll let you know.
But some girls might not feel so comfortable doing that.

Maybe she hasn’t found her voice… so on behalf of her, here are some of the reasons why she doesn’t want to have sex with you:

Maybe she just wants to be friends.

Maybe she wants a relationship.

Maybe she wants to build a relationship based on friendship and shared interests.

Maybe she went to a girls school, and boys and men are aliens to her.
Maybe she has no brothers, no father, no uncle, no male friends, at all. Maybe she only knows the company of women.
Maybe she’s scared of you.

Maybe she wants a real man.

Maybe she’s sick of raising men.

Maybe everyone finds her beautiful, except herself.

Maybe she’s tired of being bothered by boring men trying to fuck her.

Maybe she’s just a friendly person.

Maybe she’s a Lesbian.

Maybe she already knows you don’t have what she wants or needs.

Maybe your clothes smell like stagnant washing. Maybe this already tells her all she needs to know.

Maybe she was sexually abused as a child, and will never get over it. Or maybe she will. Maybe she hasn’t decided, yet. Maybe she doesn’t know how.

Maybe she has body-issues.

Maybe she wants to fall in Love, get married, and have babies.

Maybe she doesn’t want to get pregnant, doesn’t want to take the pill, and hates condoms.

Maybe she needs Sexual Healing.

Maybe she’s only ever been raped, and has Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Maybe she doesn’t know she has it. Maybe no one has ever let her talk about it, and she’ll never speak again.

Maybe she was seduced by too many older men in her twenties, and will never trust again.

Maybe her Heart is bruised.

Maybe she’s just here for the music…

Maybe she feels pressured to be happy. And smile. And not cry.

Maybe she’s a virgin, and you’re not the one.
Maybe she still believes in Love.

Maybe she wants to Make Love.

Maybe she can’t have what she wants; so there’s nothing that she wants.

Maybe she has her period.
Maybe she’s not in the mood.

Maybe she’s in Love with someone, right now. And it’s breaking her Heart.

Maybe she’s tired of shit boyfriends.

Maybe she’s tired of attempted rape.

Maybe you’d find all of this out if you cared to get to know her. No matter how long it takes.

I don’t want to have sex with you – no matter what I’m wearing.

Maybe she learned to get dressed from magazines and tv.

Maybe she DIDN’T buy her boobs, and doesn’t want to talk about them – even if they’re breathing. Even if they’re radiating.

Maybe she hasn’t learned how much strangers like to talk about them, because she’s used to being surrounded by people that treat her like a person.

Maybe she’s naturally classy.

Maybe she has no idea how hot she is. Maybe looks don’t matter to her.
Maybe you’re the pervert.

Maybe she just had to wear something, because society doesn’t make clothes that fit her.

Maybe she has no idea about fashion, and  doesn’t care to.
Maybe she does.

Maybe she likes to dance – and dresses for the occasion.

Maybe her clothes reflect who she is.
Maybe they don’t.

Maybe she feels peer-pressured, or is just trying to fit it.

Maybe she doesn’t know that she’s in for a life of being sexualised yet…

You can’t go wrong with friendship.
Stop thinking about your penis, and meet people, and ask the kind of questions that bond two people together.

Now that you know some of the possible reasons why she doesn’t want to have sex with you, you can hold all of that in your Heart, and ask inquiring questions.

Or you can throw in some deep statements, and walk away for a while.

Things like, “I’m not afraid of your darkness.” and walk away.

“Maybe you could tell me about it, sometime.”

“I only like deep people.”

“I’m always interested in new friends.”

She’s a person, and your erection is your responsibility.

If you learn people-skills, maybe she’ll WANT to touch you. It’s not about having to convince someone you’re worth it. Prove it.

Be interestED:

“Do you like casual sex, or do you prefer relationships?”

“What do you like about casual sex?”

“What do you like about relationships?”

“Do you feel confident enough to share a strong foundation of Love with someone, and an open sex-life, or are you more monogamous?”

“Parents together, or separated?”
– this will give you a good indication as to whether this person believes in Love, or not.

“Do you like books? What is one that really stands out? Did it teach you anything?”

“Do you watch movies?”

“What do you Love? Kittens, Rainbows, Holidays, Psychology… Money? What would you do with money?”

“Do you write? You look like a writer. You look deep. Where can I read what you’ve written?” Because if you’re interested in her, you’d like to get to know her mind.

You can talk about your sister, or your mother, or your dreams and aspirations.
Offer interesting and relevant things about yourself.
Talk about the last book that taught you something.

Ask her about her Heart. Find out what she Loves and Values.

“I really like deep conversations, but we’ll have to get to know each other better for that.”

Just Ask.
And if she doesn’t want to talk to you, don’t hang around. Go away.
You can try coming back one more time, later, to see if she missed you.
And if you do it a few times, each time making sure it’s long enough that she’s forgotten about you – maybe even thought you’d left – you might begin to grow on her… and maybe she’ll want to be friends.
And then you can learn why she really doesn’t want to have sex with you.

If she doesn’t want to be friends, don’t push it, and understand NO.
Maybe she never wants to share again.




The most common – and simplest – way to understand this is with the trinity of:

* Body
* Mind
* Spirit

We embody a body; we experience through the perceptions of the mind; and we are the spirit.

So, you can see how we are all these three things, split, or whole.

But there is even more to this, and I will begin at the core:

The reason I have chosen this picture, is because it is the easiest way to understand;
We will begin with the teeny tiny Babushka: the unbroken one.
She is solid. She is whole.
Think of her as your essence-self; she is the eternal flame of the Great Bonfire from which we all emerged.
Flames, clothed separate, and dancing through time and space…

The Inner Core – the monad, the atman, the christ consciousness – is the perpetual sexual spiritual orgasm of creation, itself.
Electricity and Light in the uniqueness of You.
Dancing so close, so unified, that I cannot tell them apart.
It is The One.
You are that energy signature – irreplaceable, incomparable.

Let us now build upon this one, this electrical, living individual – you;
We are the skin, we are the skeleton.

Add a Babushka Doll around the flame, and this is our first layer – let’s call it consciousness, or the ability to know one’s self.

Add another doll around that, and call it ‘mind’; the ability to have a conversation with consciousness.

Add another doll/veil and call it body.

And another, that we will call “The Personality” – this is all the things that you like; all the things that brighten you, and make you dance (inside, or out).
You might like red, you might like rainbows, you might like grass, or Egypt, tequila, or velvet, music, words, water, gold, or lightning, thunder or driving, breaking hearts, or disappearing… the potentials are infinite!

The ego might be the next doll/layer/veil. This is the one, that meets the other. Separate.
Here, we have a human.
In this separateness is where all the tension is; bound flames, longing to merge.

Choices are made to keep the self, or generate Love, Brightness, and Heat by the re-uniting of two flames.
Whatever decision is made by one, affects both humans.

If one thinks they *are* the human – or the ego – or the personality, their layers will be fused; hardened.

-That’s why broken people let out the most light.
The fluidity of twisting open, unveiling, and getting closer to the burning core… in individual shades we don’t even have names for; octarine, glitterine, fla’tango, and violet ice…

The more living and dying we do, the more we add layer upon layer of Babushka Dolls, building up a person.
Giving it a name.

Making it “real”.

We have different masks, or costumes, depending on our interactions – we are fathers and mothers, sisters and brothers, children, friends, famous, boyfriends, girlfriends, married, teachers, computer programmer, director, musician, professional fairy.
We may have a stripper name, personality, and sheath.
We may have a healer name, personality, and sheath.
We may have a mystic name, personality, and sheath.
These, too, are layers of our multi-dimensionality.

We birth new bodies/sheaths/layers/veils, and shape-shift fluidly through them all, at any time.

Some people are constant characters, and that is just as ‘normal’ – variety is the spice of life; we can adorn ourselves with complexity, or strip it right back to simplicity.

We embody the Babushka Doll of all the lives we’ve ever lived, and ever will.

We embody our perfect self, and our not-so perfect self.
We embody our Divinity, and we are also the embodiment.

I call this “my human”. She is ‘mine’.

Fused, I am the effervescent, living, breathing, embodiment of the Cosmic Orgasm.

I call her “my human”. She *is* mine.
She is all the senses, all the bodies, and I Am The Flame.

I am the Inner Peace in her Wild Life.
We share her eyes.
I am the glow.

So, my human, and your human, has layers to it;
* emotions
* feelings
* senses
* thoughts
* personality
* perceptions
* the unique soul sexual signature

She has an astrology chart that interacts with yours, and can be the embodiment of any planet, any day.
Different people give birth to our different bodies – some we’ve never met, tried on, or embodied before…
The Cosmic Clock cycles us into Initiations in which we birth even more outer layers of our selves. We manifest.

Even our facebook profile is one avatar of ourselves – you, to whom I am addressing, are real, aren’t you?

This one is your thinnest, most ghostly Babushka Doll.
It is known as your STRAWMAN – which you didn’t make, but was made FOR you – by society; the man-made construct of illusion and deception.
All the serial numbers it calls you, birth certificate it ‘requires’, forms it makes you fill out, and things it forces you to do and be –
That is society hijacking your strawman, that you don’t even know you have.

It is your prison costume in the world of illusion until you reclaim it for yourself.

Just as we embody our bodies, and our bodies embody cars to drive around in – we are wombs within wombs.

So, let’s put it all in reverse; drop your human (in all its complexity), and YOU remain.
Be the Lover, and BE YOU
Be the teacher, and BE YOU
Be the singer, and BE YOU

Just as Salome un-veils, one by one, we, too, reveal more and more of our Light as we apocalypse… closer to our original, unnamed, flaming colour… octarine, glitterine, fla’tango, and violet ice…

Stripped… until there before you stands a naked flame.

The more complex we are, the more layers we will have.

It doesn’t just add character -it adds character’s’ 😉

We are multi-dimensional.

To be simple and pure, or layered and layering – no matter.
As long as you Live in the Flame in the Light of your Eyes, you can be as multi-dimensional as you can imagine… living infinite lives all at once.

Essentially, *~ NAMASTE ~* means: “my unbroken Babushka Doll says “Hello!” to your unbroken Babushka Doll”.

My truth, to yours.


– or as they say in the movie, Avatar: “I see you”.

SEXUAL ALCHEMY: The Long-Lost Art of “Making” Love

SEXUAL ALCHEMY: The Long-Lost Art of “Making” Love.

If you find, that all too often, the thrill has gone – all too soon – out of your sexual relationships, you may be experiencing awareness from approximately only one-seventh of the human aspect of your mysterious, infinite nature…


“Sex” is a friction of the genitals, and compared to the *~ BONFIRE ~* of Generating Love, is comparable to a matchstick. Over, in a flash…

Sex is unconscious, and not only is it energetically draining, emotionally debilitating, and full of transference, but it generally results in the accidental creation of unconscious life; Lovers part, and having no knowledge of their multi-dimensional natures, can become confronted by the emotional wounds of the “inner child nature”.
It is not uncommon for the parent of the child of the same sex to become jealous of the once-a-Lover’s affections for the new baby, and a feeling of missing out.
It spirals out from there; a feeling of separation, isolation, a seeking, a lost-ness, behavioural problems, emotional problems, and much, much more.
Not to mention the new life that is now in this world.

And, YES: you CAN orgasm without ejaculation. They are actually separate impulses.
You can store your mojo; “charge your battery”; regenerate your body; release occasionally; never release; release to pro-create – it’s YOUR sexuality, YOUR body, and you can do whatever you want with it, and share it with whomever wants to share it with you.

But, if Love burns out, and passion is drowned, you may be ready to ascend from the genitals, to the Heart.


Up to you, but you can’t explore what you don’t know, so why not try every which way and see for yourself.
There is no Bible – “Love is my religion”.

One may be familiar with this experience post-orgasm and release:

“Whereas, if there has been an orgasm, it is the common experience that there is a sense of loss, weakness, and dispelled illusion; following quickly on the first grateful feeling of relief.
There has been a momentary joy, but too brief and epileptic to make much impression on consciousness, and now it is gone, leaving no memory.
The lights have gone out, the music has stopped.
The weakness is often so severe as to cause pallor, faintness, vertigo, dyspepsia, disgust, irritability, shame, dislike, or other pathological or unloving symptoms…. even if no more, there is lassitude, sudden indifference, a wish to sleep.
A wet blanket has fallen for the time at least, on the flame of love.
Romance drops and crawls like a winged bird.
In Karezza, on, the contrary, the partners unfold and separate reluctantly, lingeringly, kissing, clinging, petting to the last, thrilled with and rehearsing memories, glowing with an affection and admiration which they feel can never end.” ~ the Endless Honeymoon of “Karezza”, aka Modern (1931) Man discovers the Timeless, Universal Language of Maithuna/Tantra/Sexual Alchemy.


O, and “Porn is a Lie” -just so we’re clear.
It can be extremely psychologically damaging to individuals, and relationships, if you don’t have a sense of humour about it.

You have a responsibility to the physical, emotional, and psychological aftermath of a union. “Generally” the female is on the receiving end, and will be left reflecting his “foreign energies” that she may or may not be able to process.
Old wounds may have opened, and all of it swims in chaos that seeks clarity -a lot can go on in this current Dark Age.

Abandonment of that process by one party can be devastating for the other.

If you are not prepared to be responsible, it is immature – and selfish – to dabble in things of great consequence that are not fully understood. And you can be immature and selfish if you want, but just know that “this” is an ACTUAL person.
You may end up with a baby – FOR LIFE (a whole other person!)
This Lover may be your baby – for a little while.
You may become the baby.
Everyone: be kind.

Too much Fire is Yanger, dry, parched, aggression, blistering wounds, and boiling blood…

Too much water, and we’re swimming in yin, deeper and further away, forgetting the sun, drowning in tears; quivering, dissolving, cold, and wet…

ALCHEMY: The Foundational Ingredients of Creation are *Just Right* – skillfully measured.
Fluid Fire; the Warmth of Light; the delirious bliss of Fire-Water; white, effervescent waterfalls of star-fire; bright, warm Lagoons of Love…

Marrying one’s own FireWater, one becomes a vast and radiant being.
When two vast and radiant beings come together, universes are born; because there’s space…

To ascend from sex, to a state of Love, begin by honouring ALL the Magnets – just arrive at The Sacred Middle, and “always show up for Love”.
One of you might run away, out of fear, or wounding, or some other rebellion, but at least you “showed up”. It’s what Love wanted.
Communication is an essential ingredient for Loving.
Know yourself, and share your self.
Love won’t mind.
Feel your way around each other… for best affect, sort your own shit out!
At the *very* least, know your wounds, know what you need, and know that LOVE will be more than happy to provide that for you.
All else is cowardice, selfishness, and unconsciousness.
Everyone, be kind.

For same-sex partners, your body is the alchemy of sperm and egg, so know that we are all working with the same cosmic mother and father mojo.
If you can’t find enough info, and feel really passionate, perhaps explore the subject, and blaze a path in the field of same-sex tantra.
Love is androgynous.
The symbol within the Anahata is the fusion of an upward triangle (Fire), and a downward Triangle (Water).

SEXUAL MOJO: Sperm, and Blood are the mojo fluids in the body.
There is no “have to”, or “should” – only wanting.
Your choice.
Your adventurous exploration.
Unconscious, draining, destructive, self-destructive, selfish ‘sex’.
Release sex.
Pro-creation sex.
Ritual Sex Magik.
Nourishing, generating Love-Glow of Sexual Alchemy, individually, or in pairs.

Learn the microcosmic orbit, here:
(it’s not a free book, but read up on it and see if you like the writer, or just explore the internet for more…)

Just as a penis gets erect, so too, do the nipples. These are the ‘yang’ centres; man gives forth from the genitals, and plugs in to the female.
She gives forth from her Heart – pouring out Love-Energy…
This creates just one circuit of flowing energy; out of him, into her, out of her, into him – which is why it is so important for man to become aware of his yin-Heart; the vulnerability he feels there, is how she also feels at reception – openness needs to be prepared for.
Every body wants to give from their giving place; the only way it is mutually beneficial is to open to that circuit.

And it gets expansive from there… include the Soul-Gazing of the Eyes for figure 8’s ~ and even more currents to discover…

Subtle, and astral bodies, included!

No amount of sexual skill and study will ever come close to the spontaneous undulations and combustions of cosmic alchemy surrendered unto in a human Love container.

Sexual Alchemy is real, and people are doing it.
And I thought you might like to know. 🙂

Less sex – more Love!

*~ ❤ ~*


Sperm + Egg = You

Sperm + Egg = You

Sex is the Root of ALL Life.

Relationship; Union; Generation.

It is the condition of our sexuality that creates the condition of our society and quality of our Lives; unconscious sex = unconscious life.
and ∞ vice-versa

Destructive sex ∞ Destructive Energy ∞ Destructive Lives

Nurturing Sex/Sexuality ∞ Nurturing Lives

Sexual Wholeness ∞ A Life of Wholeness

Powerful Sex ∞ Powerful People
Polluted Sex ∞ Toxic People

It really is, what should be tended, if we wish for the Tree of Our Civilisation to fruit and flower – or we, as a people, won’t be able to breathe.

The Secret to our Sexuality, is in its POWER to Illuminate the Mind, and charge the being into a creative, tuned-in and turned-on expression of the Universe.
aka NOT an obedient slave.

From the coccyx bone, up the spine, and into the brain;
A pillar of Electric-Light encased in a Sensuality Suit.

* Religious Oppression ( -ah, SEX *IS* GOD)
* Sexual Manipulation through Media
* Pretend “education systems” – ALL the emphasis is on the monkey-MIND
(distraction; occupation; distraction; occupation)
* Unconscious Parents and Teachers
* Bad Habits/Traditions
* Unconsciousness


A: It’s the sexually-charged electricity that turns the Lightbulb on, in the mind.

Without it; darkness.

Keeping sexuality oppressed, polluted, divided, confused, and manipulated is in the best interests of The Global Slavery System.

Broken Lightbulbs.

Seeking LIGHT outside themselves.

Sex (generally) creates a pleasure-positive charge that can be used to counteract negative charges, stored in the body; this is sometimes why sexual cravings can turn a dark corner.

What people get up to, in private, consensual environments, usually has to do with the alchemy of transforming negative charges, into positive ones.

Shadows, into the Light.

Suffering and Silence, into Ecstasy and Expression.

<Contraction> to Expansion ~*

The other shadow of sex, is not consensual – it’s not about relationship – and it is about power, and severe mental illness.
The most unconscious of all.
Walking Beasts.
The kind with no predator.

SEXUALITY is not a mental concept; it doesn’t live solely in the Mind.
‘God’ (Shiva) is in the Mind, (pineal gland; often asleep)
‘Goddess’ (Shakti) is in the hips (dancing, electric; sensual aliveness)

SEXUALITY is a complete experience, that uses ALL the senses, ALL AT THE SAME TIME!
~ and sometimes that extra one… *~ Phenomena ~*
SENSES are our Windows from our inside to the outside… the meeting place. Tantra.

SEX is Love’s Reunion with itself.

SHAKTI is your aliveness…

This world needs some serious Relationship Education; but only the Conscious are paying attention.

Do I believe in Utopia?
Well, I come from there, so…
I know it’s possible.

HOWEVER – I find myself, in a Foreign Place… with Aliens, to whom I am also the Alien.
But they don’t understand me, like I understand them…
Alas; we SHARE Reality.

Currently Brought to You by Ignorance and Obedience.
“Whoever Controls the Media, Controls the Mind” ~ Jim Morrison

So… I will use MY MEDIA to *GUIDE* The Mind of Society.

I will not even go into the science of it; but our Lips are Sensors.
They READ… The inner lips explore their environment; from the time we are babies, and we put everything against the soft part of our mouths: TASTING LIFE. Sensing Life. Our mouth, our lips; our technology, sending information to the nervous system, to the brain…

Not to mention the pleasure… 🙂
Which, flickers the lightbulb in the mind – we want that!

SEX is a Language of Life, itself.

Do you want YOUR sexuality to be dictated by Unconscious History? By your parents, your teachers, dark society?
Or, do you want to grow up, and make it an expression all of your own… your language.

What turns you on? And WHY:
Do you Love the Fire?
Do you Love the Milk?
The Ice…
Do you Love Space-Exploration, or Gardening The Soul…?
Do You Love to watch *~ POWER ~* Erupt at the touch of your fingertips…

What the Patriarchy is Hiding AND Exploiting:

Mother is The Womb.
Mother, is the Mothership.
The Womb is The Cosmic Portal, through which we all arrive; don’t you think, that it’s actually rather logical to Worship the Womb of society? The Women, The Mothers?
Not the Patriarchal God that Heads all Religion, and DICTATES, from an invisible realm?
Looking out into Space… it is expansive, just like a Womb.
What is a *~ star ~* without a Universe to put it in…

If only society could see how beautiful Women/Wombs are when they Flower… The Perfume of Love fills the world.

Even if her womb is damaged –
Even if her womb is a ghost…
Even if she is not a Mother to embodiments, she is Mother to creation, to society, to projects, to the world.

If there is or was, something wrong with your Mother, it stems from her damage; for not being valued, for being treated badly, once upon a time, for being born into a lineage of women shaped by men… and carrying all that aboard her Mothership.
If she was hurt, and never healed, well – she was just your unconscious Captain. And that deserves a thank you.

How comfortable are we with our own Power, embodied?
Your Body is the Womb of your Soul.


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How to get Beautiful, Again, After an Ugly Life.

So… “Fake it ’til You Make it.”

Sade Sati is over.
And I may not have even believed in it, unless I had lived through it.

And now I am thinking, about the two Cancer Moons I know, who may have finished theirs up, not too long ago… they’ve not been having a great time, either.

This is a 7 1/2 YEAR Transit, according to Vedic Astrology.

I feel nearly dead.

And I am used to the metaphorical dying… the Rebirth of Phoenix… but this is beyond even that.
And I feel really ugly, inside and out.

Everything that was happening on the inside, is taking it’s toll. And started to eat me from the inside… and now, it’s all I see, on the outside…

How many “Dark Night of the Soul”, are there?
My Soul was Light… I come from a Lovely and Beautiful place – nothing like this place, here.
So far, this entire incarnation has been one long, and endless “Dark Night”.
I have seen no sign of the Light I remember.

But, I’m still here, I still have a plan, and after what I have lost over the last few years or so, it’s time to turn up the Inner Beauty, and Inner Light, that I must have brought with me. Maybe that’s the only “Dawn” there ever will be…

And all I can think of, is “Fake it til you make it.”

I am talking make-up, clothes, outward appearances – a literal mask, or costume, of who you think you should be.
I need a whole new set of foundation, mascara, eyeliner, and lipliner.
I need to keep it minimal, simple, uniform.
I need to shape my eyebrows, and maintain them.

My hair had been falling out, while other hair was growing where it shouldn’t – anything I can do to right this wrong, I simply must.

It’s a full time job – but I have to get myself back, if we are to do anything of pleasure and purpose in this dark world.

So, Fake Face, and more fitting clothes, to make the body feel like it doesn’t need to conform to the world. Let the world come to it.

I also have a couple of friends who can make patterns. I have the design, I’ll get them to draw me up pattern, and then I’ll sew ~ many colours, fabrics, textures; one pattern. 😉

And that’s what it’s going to take before I can get back in the unconscious arena commonly known as Samsara.

Because: “If you don’t have a character, you can’t be in the movie!”
And I did not incarnate, just to fade to black…
I WANT to be in The Movie… but I’d also like to co-direct, or whatever. Not just a victim of it.
– o, that’s why I also say: “If I’m not the narrator, then I’m just the victim.”

Next: REALLY focus on nutritious and delicious diet, and weightlifting, so I feel STRONG, so my Soul, has a place to call Home.
Make one dream come true each day.
(If you’re used to doing that, do it for someone else. If you’re used to doing it for others, do it for yourself.)

Maybe slowly begin to socialise, again.

Get some surgery if you’re psychologically sound – life is too short.
I have.
I need to, regarding the hair imbalance. Over the years, I’ve developed an irrational phobia of hair.
And I know others who have had surgeries for various reasons; all report an improved quality of life.
Whether it’s a lap band, a breast reduction, or gender reassignment – I haven’t met anyone who regrets having their surgery.

Take control of your body.
See the doctor.
Work with the doctor – but find a good one. One that doesn’t laugh in the face of alternative and holistic medicines.
Stay away from the one’s that prescribe medication for every little thing. Unless medication is your goal.
Check up your eyes, your teeth, your ears, and your insides.
Get the courage up for a sexual health check – they even offer a $20 Gift Voucher at my clinic. 😉

I will admit, like a Virgo, like Michael Jackson, Amy Winehouse, and Dolly Parton (Moon/Rising), there is a chance I might overdo it in my desire for perfection, but as long I get clear, and set boundaries, I should be ok… 😉
Laser Hair Removal is my friend.
Maybe someday I’ll learn to use it to help others.


So, as usual: “Google is your friend”.
I found some other tips, online, like:
* accentuate your strong points. Physically, and morally. Really focus on your Best Self.
* people see you as 20% more attractive, than you see yourself.
* think about the people you like: have you actually even noticed if they are beautiful, or not?





…abusive relationships are an interesting topic that I would like to discuss; it’s such an uncomfortable topic, that no one ‘really’ likes to talk about it. much…

Often, relationships are just a psychological projection on top of another psychological projection; it’s so confusing, entertaining, and dynamic, that it can sometimes last for years!
Swapping back and forth, just killing time.

There are schools of thought that like to hold the victim accountable for ‘allowing’ abuse to continue – but it’s not that simple…

If we attract what we need to learn about ourselves, then it is equally true, that we attract what we need to learn about others.

In which case, two (positives/attractions), cancel each other out…
…all that’s left is OBSERVATION.

– not judgement, but observation.

It’s actually quite a headfuck to think that “everything is about you”; “What am *I* doing wrong?”
“What am *I* attracting?”

– actually, that way of thinking is for people that have no self-reflection.

If you are not a psychopath, naturally, you have empathy; are considerate; are not lacking in accountability.

That said: you are, more often than not, NOT attracting your equal.

You are attracting someone who is imbalanced, who seeks your balance.

And will throw you off balance if you keep wondering what they’re here to teach you…

Then there’s astrology; where some people are more fiery in Love, and others are more watery ~ different styles of Loving.
(way more complex than just that alchemy… air, earth, and everything in between!)

Sometimes, through the dynamism, they clash. SEEKING BALANCE.

Then there is Neptune… always seeing the best in someone – The Potential – no matter how often they kick you in the face with reality…

Pisces will tolerate more than any other sign – because of COMPASSION. EMPATHY. FAITH IN YOU.

Unfortunately “acceptance” of bad behaviour as “a lesson you need to learn”, not only psychologically implies that you are stupid, naive, inexperienced, and “have a lot to learn!” – it shifts the blame, and the attention, from THE PROBLEM.

“Law of Attraction” serves only to soothe the psychology, and to unwittingly allow bad behaviour to go unmonitored in its acceptance; it is a subtle form of “being in control” of things that you really are not.
Sometimes, there is learning, sometimes there is teaching; sometimes, there is just SELFISH.

There is a vast difference between being Zen, and “mental conditioning”.

Indeed, many reply: “Well, at least I’m happier when I think this way.”

And sure.
It’s our experience to experience.

But don’t be afraid of confronting devastation if it’s THE TRUTH.
The Truth leads us to our next revelation.

“Attracting” rapists, and beasts is not ‘a thing’.

There is nothing – “karmic”, or otherwise – about a child ‘attracting’ abuse. Nothing to learn from it, at all.
That is FORCED and UNWANTED “relating”.

FORCE is not something you attract, but something that comes *for* you.

Even if you have boundaries.
Even if you say no.
Especially if you are trusting, new, and open…
A Perfect Star-Heart, simply radiating…

A beast is a beast; it should never be confused with your beauty, your strength, your sanity: they want what you have.

Confusing them with you is to have them hide in plain sight.

Pisces is most willing to Nourish by Love.
Mother Theresa.
Nourished by ‘God’.

An Unconditional Loving Heart is a Healer ~ wants to help. The World…

Libra can’t be alone; will compromise, and over-compromise.

Scorpio will take whatever it can get; merge, submerge, reemerge…

– these are energies, not star signs.
I might best do to talk about Neptune, and Venus, and Pluto… but they’re not understood so deeply.

The Truth about The Mirror, is that it’s actually the opposite – not the same.

Draw a line, on your face, and when you look in the mirror, it will be on the opposite side of what you are facing.

Literal example:
My X-Beast was so hideously ugly on the inside, that he showed me how beautiful I was, because I was nothing like him.
– it was a shocking revelation; to learn that such a chasm, such a difference, existed…

My ‘light’ is so Hunted, that it’s not even safe for me to go outside.
– either that, or it’s *~ blinding ~*
– exposing, confusing, and dissolving the psychological projection headed my way…

When I want, like a magnet, I attach at the Heart -just so there’s no confusion ^_^
~ have to peel me off 😉

Through “relationship”, some Hearts learn to open, and some Hearts learn to shut down.

The closing is the sadder…

All of it, seeking BALANCE.

Because people are vampires; feeding off each other’s energy…
depleting each other.

When life is like this, one is not aware of The Source of Love, in the Heart-Centre.

A Star…

Nourishing, and self-nourishing.
This is why, when a star shuts down, it’s a terrible loss…

I used place my hand on the Heart of whom I was speaking with.
And close my eyes.

I didn’t realise I was “weird”…

Youth and Beauty is taken advantage of – devoured by hungry vampires – by those who feel they’ve lost their Youth and Beauty.
– the innocent do not “attract” that; they didn’t even know it was a thing.

# In summary, we are all coming from ‘about’ 12 different directions…
“Me vs You vs We”
“Mine vs Yours vs Us”
“Small World vs Big World – The High Road vs The Low Road; Macrocosm vs Microcosm”
“Cosmic Parents; Cosmic Mother vs Cosmic Father – The Yin Way vs The Yang Way”
“Friendship vs Romance; Humanitarian Consciousness vs MY happiness/pleasure/radiance. “ALL of us” vs *just* Us…”
“Persecuted vs Persecutor; Eternity vs Now. Timeless, Unconditional Love vs Too Busy for Love”

Every single one of these ways is REAL.
A real perception/projection


Relationships are for Spiritual Growth.
If one is Spiritually Grown, then they share that with “the other”.

Everything else is just playtime, bonding, ego-strokes, *shiny* and “getting to know you while accidentally getting to know myself” –

The Spiritually Grown are “The Soul Mates”

Not just a co-dependent drama that never dies…

Anyway; too much to say on this topic!

Consider this; THE BEGINNING.

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