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DID ROSE McGOWAN JUST MAKE HERSTORY?!

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Women of the World have been waiting for this day; we have been working for it, since they came.

Rose McGowan and her #RoseArmy may have just changed Hollywood, forever.

This is an Herstorical moment!

ALL the voices, hashtags, posts, and tweets who found the fire to join the chorus of women who stood – bravely – in the critical spotlight of consciousness, helped to change the world as we know it.
What is now known, cannot be unknown.
Everything is Illuminated.

“It is harrowing to have people know my deepest pain, but fear cannot stop this national convo that needs to be had.” ~ Rose McGowan

Those of us putting ourselves out there, patiently waited for the moment we had sisters to stand alongside – it takes an army of women to be heard; you may have noticed.
Love straight-shot it, in 2005.
Some of us died waiting for this moment, giving everything we had, and leaving all we had behind; for every girl or woman lost to male-violence, we remember her in our Hearts. We work for justice and awareness, with Liberation as the ultimate goal.

You are taking part of someone’s soul. It’s happened to me. It alters the course of your life; it’s altered the course of my life.” ~ Rose McGowan

R.I.P.

You should always take care of those sweeter and smaller than you are.” ~ Beasts of the Southern Wild

The Neptunian Magic-Mirror of Hollywood rules collective-consciousness; male-dominated, they’ve been stealing dreams, and implanting nightmares since the birth of the silverscreen.

Whoever controls the media controls the mind.” ~ Jim Morrison

For so long, all we’ve heard and seen, has been known as history; commonly referred to by witches as: “HIStory”: men’s stories. The Male Gaze.
If you know anything about astrology, you’ve been watching Pluto in Capricorn dismantle the patriarchy, brick-by-brick. By now, we’re about half-way through, and while many girl’s and women’s lives have been interrupted and interfered with, we have been working every day to break the spell of the patriarchy over the masses; it may have just happened. But not without effort. Not without a public anchor: Rose.

So whether you’re “sick of hearing about it”, or whatever. Tough.
Women deal with it everyday; keeping the story alive, and bringing it ALL the way home, to pedophilia and organised crime, is how it has to be. No more.
There are still many, many comments online from people who DON’T get it.

Hi-Five to all who do! ✋

Rose McGowan has her Sagittarius Moon and Lilith conjunct Galactic Centre.

Galactic Centre is notorious for the astrology of Whistleblowers; Sagittarius burns with the truth. Often a foot-in-mouth sort of character. Sometimes, the voice of God/Goddess.
This place is the hand that turns our galaxy… the movement of this moment.

The Moon is about Womankind; the phases of womanhood, motherhood, childhood, and our Soul: the rhythm of life, itself. Period, period-blood. The Womb. It’s about home, sanctuary, intimacy, embodiment, and feelings. It is reflective – but on a mass scale, in a situation like this, we might simply say it’s about “Women”.

Lilith is about Independence from the Patriarchy, and crimes against women and children – she is untameable. She has been demonised by you-know-who.
Once the war is over, she is pure, primal, uninhibited creative and sexual expression.
These days, she is known as a dark-goddess no-one wants to touch. The buried one. Silenced, yet screaming if you are pushed too far away from life, and can hear her at the ends of the earth. Caged. Misrepresented. Erased, almost.
There is an image, here, that reminds me of what she is.  The first image.

The Voice of the Universe is *literally* speaking through Rose, right now, because Galactic Centre is presently being *activated* by Transiting Lilith, herself, and Transiting Saturn; which aids in manifesting Lilith’s authority, embodiment, and voice.
This is Mature Lilith.
Real Lilith.
When all the women started speaking up about the TRUTH behind the Hollywood Mirror, I commented that I could hear “Lilith conjunct Galactic Centre”… I got a thrill.
Lilith/Saturn and Galactic Centre are also getting a little *electrifried* by a trine from revolutionary Uranus in Aries, and, as part of a GRAND FIRE TRINE with the North Node in Leo, Destiny is involved. Our future is here. Our moment has arrived – if we keep the spotlight ON.

Powerful women (Lilith), supported by Reality (Saturn), Revolution (Uranus), and Destiny (North Node): ladies, our time has come.

STAY ON FIRE.

Other notable astrology of the moment is Jupiter just switching over to Scorpio – Jupiter is BIG, and EDUCATIONAL, and Scorpio is sexual, deep, power-engaged, and mysterious… combine the two.
Jupiter in Scorpio is ruled by soothsayer, Sagittarius, so as the Cosmic-Clock moves, so too, will the story of earth: stay present, and engaged in your Truth and your Mystery.
You might even *shock* yourself!
Jupiter in Scorpio is also influenced by Pluto, who is in Capricorn: this astrological coming-of-age is HUGE.
Saturn activates Galactic Centre only every thirty years.

And a shorter, yet *active* transit of the last few days, is MARS (sexuality, passion, strength) opposite CHIRON (#ouch).

And an ever shorter astrological moment, is Venus conjunct SUPER Galactic centre; this one is from late-Virgo to early Libra. Venus here, has the deepest Heart: she’s a Healer of galactic proportions.
Mars is slowly but surely on his way there. Any day, now.

Revolutionary Rose is also about to have her Lilith Return, and Saturn transit her Moon.
Sister-witch Alyssa Milano has her Sun conjunct Galactic Centre; Alyssa started the hashtag #MeToo on twitter, so the world could see the Truth.
So the world could Witness.

Alyssa’s the Light. Rose is the Night.
Both of them are having Lilith and Saturn come round for a visit…

What this astrology means for Rose, is that she is literally the EMBODIMENT of the TRUTH of NOW. When Saturn hits her Moon, this can be a challenging time, emotionally, OR, she may just get realer.
Stronger.

During my Lilith Return, I wrote this: although I hate the powerless image the editor chose to accompany it. Very *soft*, small, and *non-threatening*.
I had no intention of being “threatening” – only real.

Alls I know, is that Rose is embodying her Destiny: Capricorn North Node gets shit done. It’s the Chief.

North Node on the cusp of the 8th House: she’ll make a powerful boss. An excellent investigator and dismantler of the patriarchy, as she reclaims female power from its ruins.

Goddess (Lilith) vs The Patriarchy (Saturn)

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Rose is Goddess speaking.

She’s an apocalypse.
Oh yeah; and her Venus is tightly conjunct Uranus. She’s so unusual… 😉 Definitely a female revolutionary. An ingenious Venus. Artistic, Awakening.
“Shocking Pink” – I think she once said…

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WHY MEN DON’T UNDERSTAND SEXUAL ABUSE

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Why don’t men understand sexual abuse?
Because they don’t know how to listen. 

Listening is a receptive quality that is usually attributed to females.
The “Yin” factor.

Receptivity has depth; it is in communion with all that is, and can draw from the pools of collective consciousness – depending on how far home you want to go.

This, is a man’s world.

Girls have been conditioned and groomed to be receptive; to be obedient.
To a male-god.
And to allll His representatives:
To the “man of the house”.
To the male-authorities in the community she grew up in – teachers; priests; government; business-men who control the money she’ll someday need to rent a house on stolen land.
– the primary reason prostitution of all sorts even exists.

But Life is Tantra; it is the exchange of yang (penetration) and yin (receptivity), forever.

When women express their natural yang nature, they are silenced by men; beaten into submission; called names; abused; locked-away – and yes: even murdered.
For daring to SPEAK her unscripted mind that does not say the words he wants to hear.

That’s why I write; from behind the safety of my computer screen, where I can express myself without being interrupted. talked-over, silenced, or abused.

Being receptive, I’ve noticed a trend around “men” on the internet, over this HW exposé: men do not understand sexual abuse.
“Why didn’t she DO this?”
“Why didn’t she DO that?”

Do?

To “Do” is yang.
She is not allowed to be yang.
She is only allowed to be submissive, obedient, and to act in accordance with his vision: The Male Gaze.

She lives in fear of being murdered.
And that is what men don’t understand about “coercion“; she is afraid.
Fight, flight, FREEZE.
She is threatened, bullied, harassed, manipulated, or held-captive until he gets what he wants.
The hell of staying with him a minute longer is shortened by surrendering sooner.
Playing dead may just save your life.

Not only do these men not understand sexual abuse; they don’t know how to listen when the generous women of the internet take valuable and precious time out of their lives to school them.
Thank you, Ladies! ❤
(And thank you to my bros who know I’m tired, and who understand that men don’t/can’t/won’t listen to women, and who educate the dinosaurs that still live amongst us… I feel excited to be alive to see these subtle changes grace our modern-days; to see the voice of men rising on behalf of women. Without having to ask.)

James Van Der Beek, of Dawson’s Creek fame, knows all too well what it feels like to be sexually harassed by older, powerful men in Hollywood:

“The actor didn’t name names, but he sympathized with women who have been silenced by fear and judgement that often accompanies speaking out against an abuser.

“I understand the unwarranted shame, powerlessness & inability to blow the whistle,” he continued. “There’s a power dynamic that feels impossible to overcome.”

“Along with a link to an article on The Cut about a writer’s experience in a hotel room with a “powerful man, Van Der Beek added, “For anyone judging the women who stayed silent, read this for perspective. Also for anyone brushing off harassment as ‘boys being boys’…What Weinstein is being accused of is criminal.””

“Why was it my responsibility to change the world?” ~ Liz Meriwether

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If Hollywood is owned by men, it is their visions, fantasies, stories, and animas that have penetrated our psyches: what we think might be women, might actually be just male-fantasy…
They highjacked the Dreamtime, and implanted it with nightmares.

The actresses who bring these female-characters to life weren’t counting on the one-dimensional perception of mankind through the lens of storytelling – she understands layers, and body-language, and pregnant silences. The average man does not.

But girls usually don’t realize this until they become women.
Sometime around the age of 30 (post-Saturn Return).

On my 30th Birthday, I looked around in horror as I realised:
“Oh my god; I’m older than every man on the planet.”
And I finally understood that “look” I’d seen in the eyes of women older than me.

Now: everyone is different. Generations are different. Times are different.

Joan Collins had to marry her rapist. 😭

Sarah Polley comments this:
“What else are we turning a blind eye to, in all aspects of our lives? What else have we accepted that, somewhere within us, we know is deeply unacceptable? And what now will we do about it?”

Emma Thompson says: “We’ve ALL had these experiences. I spent my 20’s trying to get old men’s tongues out of my throat.”
“This has been part of our world, women’s world, since time immemorial.”

Some girls can totally kick-ass – these might be girls with a strong Mars, or strong Fire-Signs and aspects in their charts.
They fight.
Most girls come from families where the men in their lives treat them like people: they do not yet know they are in for a life of sexual-abuse and assault “out there”.
They’re friendly, equal.
Some girls, have brothers that protect them, or teach them to fight just by growing up together.
Some girls are warned by their fathers to “watch out” for outside men.
These girls are lucky. And so are the boys. Family gives them foundation and context for the world.

HOWEVER
Some girls are not so lucky to be born into a Loving family: they are born into abuse.
Sexually abused by their fathers, grandfathers, brothers, uncles, and “family friends”.
Those girls have to grow up in his house.
Be forced to Love him; feel confused.
See him every day.
Pose for family photos.

I know a girl who dated her rapist for two years, after the incident.
Another, for 7 months.

Most of the time, it’s not strangers that rape you: imagine how safe that feels.

So why is Rose in photo with HW, after?
She’s an actress. A professional. At the time of this photo, I believe she was engaged to RR.
Just ‘guessing’… I might surmise her fiancé had assured her he’d “be right there”, “nothing will happen”, “we’re in a public place”. Maybe she felt invincible, that day. Loved.
She mentioned:
“My ex sold our movie to my rapist.”

I can imagine the sting of that betrayal.

Sometimes, it can take a while for a woman to register abuse; or even worse: to be affected by it.
Childhood memories may not surface until an older age.
Maybe the last – or latest – rape or assault is the straw that broke the camel’s back; after 30 years of sexual abuse and assault, see how nice you become.

People have told me they like me “better, before”.
Well guess what: I liked me, too.
I cannot BELIEVE the amount of abuse I have had to integrate and recover from; instead of having a life.
And every time I think it’s time to start again, I get interrupted by the Darkness of Man.

It takes an army of women to be heard.

And I feel somewhat Heartened by this whole Hollywood catching of a Big Fish…
Hollywood holds the collective-consciousness of the majority of the world.
These brave women have changed something.
– can you believe how long it took for anyone to even bring-up the word: JAIL?!
I hear he plans to “run to Europe” for rehab – before he’s put behind bars, don’t you think?

No-one wants to be renown for being a rape-victim – the shame is extinguishing.
It humiliates you until you shrink.
Hate yourself.
Become removed from the time-stream; never catching up to yourself.
Falling behind.
Becoming brain-damaged and growth-retarded.
Frozen.
Most girls with behavioural problems have suffered abuse, and tried to bury it.
The PSTD destroys your health.
Satire:

“Have a Worse, Shorter Life

This one’s self-explanatory: Let your hair down, go a little wild, and don’t value your own life because the world doesn’t value it, so what’s the point? Live with the metallic taste of injustice in your throat at all times, die sooner of stress-related illnesses, and thank your lucky stars you won’t live long enough to see your granddaughters go through the same horseshit trauma factory we call Earth!”

(Comedy/Tragedy are the twin-flames of storytelling.)

I have collected my courage from the various women who have spoken-out, over the years: Tara Moss, Pamela Anderson, and all the women in the powerful documentary, “Brave Miss World”, by Linor Abargil.

“Rape is so isolating.” ~ Linor Abargil

The one time I did find my voice, to write a poem about it, was because I had felt what it might feel like for someone to have my back in Love.

“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.” ~ Lao Tzu

Present Day, I don’t feel so alone now that it’s in the spotlight…

I’m pretty sure women of the world would all much rather be following our dreams, chasing our goals, crafting our inventions, and writing and directing the movies and screenplays that carry the messages we so wanted to tell.
But, we don’t get to have a life.
We have to fight a never-ending war on sexual abuse, while men get to do whatever they want.

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Our lives are interrupted. By male-violence. Injustice. Horror. Shock. Disbelief. And PTSD.
Sometimes, we get murdered; instantly, or slowly.

They say: “Life is what happens when you’re busy making plans.”
When your life is interrupted, and/or darkened, you can see CLEARLY what is wrong with the world.

“You are taking part of someone’s soul. It’s happened to me. It alters the course of your life; it’s altered the course of my life.” ~ Rose McGowan

Mine too, Rose. Mine too.

*~ GROUP-HUG ~* to anyone who has suffered abuse at the hands of men.
I celebrate this moment, where a spotlight has been shone on a collective-shadow.
Thanks to the #RoseArmy and all the women who spoke out, speak up, and won’t shut-up until justice reigns on earth.


IT’S NOT ME, IT’S YOU.

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“IT’S NOT ME, IT’S YOU.”

…abusive relationships are an interesting topic that I would like to discuss; it’s such an uncomfortable topic, that no one ‘really’ likes to talk about it. much…

Often, relationships are just a psychological projection on top of another psychological projection; it’s so confusing, entertaining, and dynamic, that it can sometimes last for years!
POWERPLAY.
Swapping back and forth, just killing time.

There are schools of thought that like to hold the victim accountable for ‘allowing’ abuse to continue – but it’s not that simple…

If we attract what we need to learn about ourselves, then it is equally true, that we attract what we need to learn about others.

In which case, two (positives/attractions), cancel each other out…
…all that’s left is OBSERVATION.

– not judgement, but observation.

It’s actually quite a headfuck to think that “everything is about you”; “What am *I* doing wrong?”
“What am *I* attracting?”

– actually, that way of thinking is for people that have no self-reflection.
Psychopaths.
Narcissists.

If you are not a psychopath, naturally, you have empathy; are considerate; are not lacking in accountability.

That said: you are, more often than not, NOT attracting your equal.

You are attracting someone who is imbalanced, who seeks your balance.

And will throw you off balance if you keep wondering what they’re here to teach you…

Then there’s astrology; where some people are more fiery in Love, and others are more watery ~ different styles of Loving.
(way more complex than just that alchemy… air, earth, and everything in between!)

Sometimes, through the dynamism, they clash. SEEKING BALANCE.

Then there is Neptune… always seeing the best in someone – The Potential – no matter how often they kick you in the face with reality…

Pisces will tolerate more than any other sign – because of COMPASSION. EMPATHY. FAITH IN YOU.

Unfortunately “acceptance” of bad behaviour as “a lesson you need to learn”, not only psychologically implies that you are stupid, naive, inexperienced, and “have a lot to learn!” – it shifts the blame, and the attention, from THE PROBLEM.

“Law of Attraction” serves only to soothe the psychology, and to unwittingly allow bad behaviour to go unmonitored in its acceptance; it is a subtle form of “being in control” of things that you really are not.
Sometimes, there is learning, sometimes there is teaching; sometimes, there is just SELFISH.

There is a vast difference between being Zen, and “mental conditioning”.

Indeed, many reply: “Well, at least I’m happier when I think this way.”

And sure.
It’s our experience to experience.

But don’t be afraid of confronting devastation if it’s THE TRUTH.
The Truth leads us to our next revelation.

“Attracting” rapists, and beasts is not ‘a thing’.

There is nothing – “karmic”, or otherwise – about a child ‘attracting’ abuse. Nothing to learn from it, at all.
That is FORCED and UNWANTED “relating”.

FORCE is not something you attract, but something that comes *for* you.

Even if you have boundaries.
Even if you say no.
Especially if you are trusting, new, and open…
A Perfect Star-Heart, simply radiating…

A beast is a beast; it should never be confused with your beauty, your strength, your sanity: they want what you have.

Confusing them with you is to have them hide in plain sight.

Pisces is most willing to Nourish by Love.
Self-Sacrifice.
Mother Theresa.
Nourished by ‘God’.

An Unconditional Loving Heart is a Healer ~ wants to help. The World…

Libra can’t be alone; will compromise, and over-compromise.

Scorpio will take whatever it can get; merge, submerge, reemerge…

– these are energies, not star signs.
I might best do to talk about Neptune, and Venus, and Pluto… but they’re not understood so deeply.

The Truth about The Mirror, is that it’s actually the opposite – not the same.

Draw a line, on your face, and when you look in the mirror, it will be on the opposite side of what you are facing.

Literal example:
My X-Beast was so hideously ugly on the inside, that he showed me how beautiful I was, because I was nothing like him.
– it was a shocking revelation; to learn that such a chasm, such a difference, existed…

My ‘light’ is so Hunted, that it’s not even safe for me to go outside.
– either that, or it’s *~ blinding ~*
– exposing, confusing, and dissolving the psychological projection headed my way…

When I want, like a magnet, I attach at the Heart -just so there’s no confusion ^_^
~ have to peel me off 😉

Through “relationship”, some Hearts learn to open, and some Hearts learn to shut down.

The closing is the sadder…

All of it, seeking BALANCE.

Because people are vampires; feeding off each other’s energy…
depleting each other.

When life is like this, one is not aware of The Source of Love, in the Heart-Centre.

A Star…

Nourishing, and self-nourishing.
This is why, when a star shuts down, it’s a terrible loss…

I used place my hand on the Heart of whom I was speaking with.
And close my eyes.

I didn’t realise I was “weird”…

Youth and Beauty is taken advantage of – devoured by hungry vampires – by those who feel they’ve lost their Youth and Beauty.
– the innocent do not “attract” that; they didn’t even know it was a thing.

# In summary, we are all coming from ‘about’ 12 different directions…
“Me vs You vs We”
“Mine vs Yours vs Us”
“Small World vs Big World – The High Road vs The Low Road; Macrocosm vs Microcosm”
“Cosmic Parents; Cosmic Mother vs Cosmic Father – The Yin Way vs The Yang Way”
“Friendship vs Romance; Humanitarian Consciousness vs MY happiness/pleasure/radiance. “ALL of us” vs *just* Us…”
“Persecuted vs Persecutor; Eternity vs Now. Timeless, Unconditional Love vs Too Busy for Love”

Every single one of these ways is REAL.
A real perception/projection

Seeking BALANCE

Relationships are for Spiritual Growth.
If one is Spiritually Grown, then they share that with “the other”.

Everything else is just playtime, bonding, ego-strokes, *shiny* and “getting to know you while accidentally getting to know myself” –

The Spiritually Grown are “The Soul Mates”

Not just a co-dependent drama that never dies…

Anyway; too much to say on this topic!

Consider this; THE BEGINNING.

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